Well, if God isn’t trying to tell me something I don’t know what is going on! Wow! Have you ever had one of those weeks where sayings, verses and everything else just keep popping up at just the right time and you didn’t even realize that you needed it?
First let me explain. Yes, I knew my life is well- chaotic at this point in time. We have a difficult situation at school that isn’t getting better (no worries Miss Sassy and Little Man are doing great!), I have a friend that I just want to give a giant hug to and let her know everything will be fine (even though I don’t know it will be fine), and well I worry for the Popo more now than i ever did. But then it started Sunday.
Sunday our new pastor said to go and find a new life verse. Find that one verse that speaks out to you. Well “Blessed are the peacemakers” stands out in our family. I highly believe that God is protecting the Popo and blessing him with the knowledge and skill to do his job safely. But lately where I have been struggling is my life verse.
“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.”
I have been HORRIBLE about this. Absolutely horrible. I have been letting stress run my life instead of just taking things as they are. I have been dwelling on the bad. I have let my anger be taken out on my kids and on my husband. The stress has me so exhausted that I haven’t been blogging or done much house work. It is literally running my life. I stopped focusing on the good and my life shows it!
Then as if that wasn’t enough- my sister. Oh how I love my sister. Sometimes she says things that make me want to smack her but then there are days where I want to hug her. Yesterday was a hug day. And it was all over a picture. Well, this picture to be exact:
Who would of thought a simple picture would be one of those slap in the face moments. Confused? So am I! So I took this picture and I posted it on facebook on Saturday. Well last night she sends me a text asking to use it for work at Linkedin. They encourage their employees to write a post every so often and well she thought this would be a good picture to use for the post (you can read it here and I highly recommend it- then you will understand some more of the slap in the face moment).
But it wasn’t just her recognizing my photography and asking to use it. It was what she said afterwards. (so some words are edited out to make it family friendly)
“Seriously don’t know how you publish all the time. it takes nerves. I’m a nervous wreck”
I told her that it was easy. That I don’t care what others think to an extent. That if they like my style of writing they like it, if not oh well. Her response was priceless- a simple “pretty sure I don’t possess that skill set”. Well first of all no, no she doesn’t. She is a very analytical person. I think that is why we sometimes butt heads. I am to carefree for her. But then it made me think- do I really posses that skill set? I mean if I didn’t care why have I burnt myself out on this blog? Why did I go to what I thought people wanted- review after review, giveaway after giveaway. This blog was to be my outlet. My way to show of my photography. To share our life. It is far from that any more. I got bored with the same old style. Don’t get me wrong. I love reviews and I love giveaways. But that isn’t what this blog was about. I did let people think of me get my better judgement. I wanted to be the perfect, never chaotic, perfect recipe mom. Truth is— that is SOOOOOO not me. Like I said my life reflects it.
With that said. I think I will go back to my carefree ways. My life was more “organized”. I got stuff done. I was happy, my kids were happy, the Popo was happy. I can not wait to share more of our life- unfiltered- with you guys. First up- I think some changes. I have been trying to get my blog to “grow up” and I think that means a name change. Yes we are a gluten free family but really. That is not what dictates our life. The name will reflect who we are as a family. So watch for an announcement once I get that figured out.
With that said- Thank you for those who have been around and I hope you stick around!