You know I have been blogging since 2011. I reached a point where I was burnt out and just post here and there now- but there is something that is missing.
With everything going on it is easy to listen to those “you are not good enough” voices in your head. And man have I been listening to them this past year. My parents got divorced after 32 years- my mom became severly mentally unstable and blamed us grown kids. It was rough- My business with The Cocoa Exchange is not doing well- I haven’t been able to finish school for Graphic design. Get the picture? It was easy to fall into the “You are not good enough” darkness.
It is easy to feel like I have failed my family- like I am stuck- like I will never be good enough. Especially when I see my siblings being successful in their lives- and I sit here and sink further and further into debt and depression. But then I start actually reading the verses at the bottom of my notebook-
“Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him” Jeremiah 17:7
“Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.” Isaiah 26:4
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in Me.” John 14:1
“Put your hope in the Lord. Travel Steadily along His path.” Psalm 37:34
OK I HEAR YOU! Why is it easier to give into to thoughts of self doubt- self worth- and failure than it is to stop- listen for guidence- for hope- for His love? While I still feel a bit “stuck” and wish my business was going 20X better than it is (I am about to lose my business affiliation sadly).- I know that HE has a plan for me- I just lack the patience- but that is where praying will come into play- I have gone back to the basics- I start with a devotional geared towards LEOW’s- I read a couple chapters of the bible (currently working on 2nd Chronicles). But now I am going to go back to the basics of my life- My blogging will go back to being more human- less robotic review after review- back to recipes- attempting to meal plan- and hopefully a source of Inspiration to you guys.
So hopefully if you are in the place I am at and working on climbing out of- the brick that hit me will also hit you – just remember
“The Lord gives strength to His people; the Lord blesses His people with peace.” Psalm 29:11